Once in a while (and sometimes more frequently (when we are talking about the now widely popular Average Xig)) we are prone to remember things from the past. Things that were never meant to be or things that should have ended differently or simply things that just now we realize that ever existed. Once those records get fresh on your mind, you simply can't help but begin to drift away from the here and now.
Hopefully by the end of the day you have found some distraction that breaks the trip so you can start to look for the way home (both literally and metaphorically). Sadly, you are not always able to find both promptly, sometimes you only find one and the other has to wait for another day.
While we are lost we only think about those things that apparently belong to past lives (or past personalities). But thinking on those events doesn't fix anything, all those past moments do nothing but help to create the same angst in the (hopefully distant (but more likely near)) future. And then there you have it, a flow of time that run backwards and takes you somewhere far from the otherwise expected future.
By the time you realize what's going on, it's usually too late. And then you have done/said things that under different circumstances wouldn't be a big deal. Yet the tremble in your body (and your thoughts) clearly tell you that not everything is alright (if anything is at all). You simply can't find the way to came back.
To the casual observer it seems trivial, maybe just a little weird but nothing more than that. The observer simply doesn't knows what is going on closer to you. Good for his or her own sanity. But that only means that you are on your own there. 'Is everything ok?' question is all the help you'll ever get on this matter.
Suddenly, when you think everything is as bad as it gets, it just disappears. And you are able to find the way back. While going back, you feel weird as if being someone else, and it's only then that you realize you just have lost a small part of what you were before, a small part of yourself gave up to let you escape.
Later that night as you try to sleep on your bed, you can't help but think how much time will pass until something trivial triggers the whole journey again. And you wonder if you'll be lucky enough to escape again from yourself.
Hopefully by the end of the day you have found some distraction that breaks the trip so you can start to look for the way home (both literally and metaphorically). Sadly, you are not always able to find both promptly, sometimes you only find one and the other has to wait for another day.
While we are lost we only think about those things that apparently belong to past lives (or past personalities). But thinking on those events doesn't fix anything, all those past moments do nothing but help to create the same angst in the (hopefully distant (but more likely near)) future. And then there you have it, a flow of time that run backwards and takes you somewhere far from the otherwise expected future.
By the time you realize what's going on, it's usually too late. And then you have done/said things that under different circumstances wouldn't be a big deal. Yet the tremble in your body (and your thoughts) clearly tell you that not everything is alright (if anything is at all). You simply can't find the way to came back.
To the casual observer it seems trivial, maybe just a little weird but nothing more than that. The observer simply doesn't knows what is going on closer to you. Good for his or her own sanity. But that only means that you are on your own there. 'Is everything ok?' question is all the help you'll ever get on this matter.
Suddenly, when you think everything is as bad as it gets, it just disappears. And you are able to find the way back. While going back, you feel weird as if being someone else, and it's only then that you realize you just have lost a small part of what you were before, a small part of yourself gave up to let you escape.
Later that night as you try to sleep on your bed, you can't help but think how much time will pass until something trivial triggers the whole journey again. And you wonder if you'll be lucky enough to escape again from yourself.
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